Morning Prayer - IV Lent Friday Year I

I said compline last night, before going to bed. I didn't quite manage not to talk after saying it. I couldn't sleep, worried about this and that in my life. But overall, it was good to get back to it.

It almost seems as if my brain has a default setting of saying "But, but, but" and it takes a fair amount of effort to bring it back to the words, to being quiet. Expected, but also always surprising to me.

Morning prayer this AM - much imagery of sheep and shepherds.

I have never been comfortable with this imagery. "I'm not a sheep" I think. "I'm independent, I'm powerful on my own terms. I'm not something that needs finding, or keeping, or gathering."

Of course, I am lying to myself. I do need to be gathered. To be found. It hurts to be reminded of it.